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| My room at The Forge, just moments before I left Sheffield |
12 midnight, 20 minutes after.
I am laying in my bed, with sore eyes from reading . Then flashbacks came, every piece of recordings
of my life in Sheffield, replayed itself through my mind.
Do you know sometimes when you are doing something and suddently... Aha! you discovered something new?
I've been hit with a "Aha!" moment.
To that person who I've known for three month, whose heart that I had broken in a second...
I know I did wrong, indisputable. I know you won't forgive me, indisputable as well. I know I gave my all, trying to make things right. But now I know, it won't change a thing between us. You'll still hate me like always. You will always look at the wrongs of me, never looking beyond, what we've been through.
Maybe, you did look through, and you decided, I'm just too much a villain, a person who you wil always find sickening - like you said before. Oh, don't worry, its not a harsh word. Its just a word that I would remember it for the rest of my life.
Neverthenless, I've always adored you, right from the beginning. It was a risk that I took, I would never anticipate myself falling head over heels for you and nothing will ever change that.
What has changed? I've decided that its time - to move on. From mistakes, from the past, from you.
Months ago, I dedicated my life to preserving the bits of our memory. My real life, began to crumble right before my eyes.
Today onwards, time is and will be my antidode.
I end every night with prayings for my family, for my friends, for you. This is for certain, something I wont change.
To you, cheers for the good life we had.
Sincerely, Me.
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